i am miserable. i wake up with pounds of dread weighing me down. i have to force myself to get up and get dressed. this dread doesn't go away as time passes like it used to. there is nothing but dread and anxiety and unhappiness. i feel desperate, really i do. when i wake up i want to beg somebody to save me, but nobody can besides myself. please. what can i do to get myself out of this despair?
I am so sorry. I have been feeling really low lately. Just can’t get balanced no matter what I do. Today i went to acupuncture and it did wonders. She did a thing called tuning forks, its this resonating little device. She did it on the top of my head, and it literally vibrated all through the center of me, making me feel alive, loved beyond reason from this simple little thing. I told her what happened and she said those were my chakra points. I think that when we are experiencing a lack of alignment, and a feeling of emptiness, it is because we are not aligned with our center. My acupuncturist (who is a phenomenal healer, Krystal Pearson) explained that human beings have an energy system of chakra points and our magnetic field that can get thrown off, but I don’t know much about it, just made a lot of sense when she explained it. It’s hard to get into that deep breathing zone though, especially if you suffer from anxiety. I think it would be really good for you to go and talk to someone, a therapist. Seriously, they help sososo much. Good luck to you. xoxoxoxo
Cat, what would you say to your best friend if she was becoming toxic to you? like she was bringing you down, not supportive or empathetic to you and all the struggles you've been facing?
I think I would ask her, if I were you, if she even notices what you’re going through. Many of us are so caught up in our own world, me included, thinking either “it is so terrible” or “it is so good” that we forget to look outside ourselves. Even though some of our most incredible moments of growth happen when someone else recognizes us or gives us a hand in some way. Do not put too much energy into “who she should be” to you, it sounds like she probably doesn’t know who she should be to herself yet either.
I fool myself in thinking that every evolution of the self is stepping forward, sometimes it is stepping back. Reassessing what “reality” is to you, how comfortable you are with it. Sometimes we must face the roughest parts of ourselves to round out the parts we consider to be beautiful.
“Every positive change—every jump to a higher level of energy and awareness—involves a rite of passage. Each time to ascend to a higher rung on the ladder of personal evolution, we must go through a period of discomfort, of initiation. I have never found an exception.”—Dan Millman (via moreofamore)
The worst thing you can do to yourself is put trust in your lack of contentment. Do not search far and wide without a base of love within you. If you feel as if the base of love within you does not exist, search deeper, clear your mind and listen. Whatever perception of yourself you have created can be cleared upon accepting love into your heart. KNOW that true love does exist, and no matter how many demons you fight, no matter how many battles you think you’ve lost, you haven’t. You are not lost, just waiting to be found. There are forces in this world that undoubtedly want you to feel lost and uncomfortable in your own skin, do not fear these parts of the world, they are powerless in the light of love.