do you have any suggestions or know any books/novels about spirituality, karma and finding peace or any think like that :)
you are a big inspiration to me <3
Thank you so much!!! I would say Siddhartha, the Kebra Nagast, A New Earth by Eckart Tolle (READ THAT!!!!) Check out religious books, like books on Buddhism and Christianity, Hinduism, etc. Explore it all!! :)
hi, i wrote a few things to you yesterday... i got really emotional when i saw you wrote back. this is awesome, thank you <3 it was so hard for me to come on here and confess the way i feel. anyway, it's so good to see you really want to help people... it's truly lovely. i think you are very compassionate and understanding. one of the reasons i wrote to you is that i have a lot of suicidal thoughts, and we know that you've been through a hard time when your brother committed suicide... i think you can understand the way i feel and i dont think you would judge me. when you say to other people you have suicidal thoughts they get scared, and i feel quite weird. but you got to tell someone what you feel - its not like you can pretend this is not happening. you also said people shouldnt feel weird because of their thoughts or experiences, and i really liked that, maybe cause i feel weird most of the time. sometimes i think im getting really crazy, but then i try to remember what you wrote... i'm not really crazy, and, even if i was, that doesnt make me worse. it's not my intention to bother you, but i think im coming to your blog whenever i feel bad cause it helps me to survive. thanks for everything and keep being amazing!
Wow, this seriously moves me. It’s incredible to think at the expense of my brothers life, I can bring you perspective to help you along. That means the fucking world to me, and it would mean the world to him. You have to know that ALL of us go through times of darkness, and the best of us sink so low that we feel there is no coming back. You are NOT alone. Sometimes I have thoughts that if I told people, they would think I was absolutely nuts, like for real! haha. I think we all feel that way at times. Know there is hope, you have angels. I am here for you. And look for support from your angels on the other side, ask for love from the great knowing or god or whatever you want to name it, it is real, but you must allow it and be open to it. Just let yourself be open and raw, instead of trying to fight the pain, just acknowledge it, but at the same time don’t let it own you. Remember you have control of your life, don’t try to fight it, just go with it. Darkness has been my biggest teacher. It is the ultimate time that you must slow down, and let it be, or it will destroy you. I have ultimate faith in you, and im sending you my positive vibes :) Just remember, we are a part of the entire universe, and in this universe, there is the ultimate power of negative energy, and also the ultimate power of positive energy. Let yourself be immersed by the positive!! You have it all inside of you, we are all connected, all a part of the bigger picture. And you keep being amazing as well! You have the potential for incredible things, you are here for a reason, just let your inner self lead you, set yourself free into a world of infinite possibility!! I friggin believe in you so much! Let yourself believe in you too! Your world will change drastically my friend. xx
dude, that is probably one of the most amazing things someone has ever said to me. I feel incredibly inspired by everything that you write, and all the responses to all your questions. I don't know why, I just feel like we're really similiar.
I know I feel the same way, like I was completely taken aback by your blog when I first saw it, I feel like we share something very similar, connected to the same source :)
hey catherine! it's been a while since we talked (I used to be dreamingof-tomorrow)but I would just like to tell you once again how much I adore your blog, your spirit and your outlook on everything. I agree with that person down there that says you should write a book. Keep being amazing, love! xx
Ohhh girl, I remember I was with my friend Morgan Maassen in Hawaii, and we came across your blog, and it reassured our hope in the world. YOU my friend are a beautiful spirit.
hi. i like your blog and the way you answer people patiently. you seem to be a very lovely person, so i came here to share my thoughts with you and see if you can help me. i can't stand the world anymore, it seems that people are not that open to hear what you have to say. i feel so bad, cause i dont really what i want to... i'm scare of other's people judgements. even my friends scare me, cause we have very different visions and i dont think they would understand me... i feel alone and sometimes i think this life is not worth living. i know its stupid, but thats what i really feel. i wish i wasnt such a deep person thats always dealing with emotional crises. you seem to be quite mature and is always helping people, so i would love to hear something from you. thanks for the attention :)
Ok first of all, feeling that way is NOT stupid, and completely valid. It is really amazing that you have the ability to feel so much pain, it means you are open, it means you have the same ability to feel on the other side of the spectrum. One thing I have realized is that I can never base my happiness on other people, and I mean in any regards. And it’s so hard because for such a long time I looked for acknowledgement in other people, but the truth is, a lot of the time, other people are going to bring you down. Something really interesting that I do is I will look in the mirror when I am having negative self talk, I don’t like the person who is looking back, it is almost like there is someone else controlling me, and when it comes down to it, it is. When you’re stuck in a negative thought process, it feels as if you are chained, and unable to break out. I can see it in my eyes, when I am being owned by my negativity. The thing is, for me, it is an incredibly deep and profound thing to realize the strength of your negative and your positive. Look in the mirror, ask your positivity for help, ask yourself to see in a new light, I promise you it works. You will see it change in your eyes, the new thought process, the new voice taking yourself back, freeing yourself. It may sound bizarre, but it helps me so much, to be able to see the distinction between the two sides of me. You realize you are NOT alone when you see the distinction, that positive side to you can bring you so much inner strength and ultimate acceptance. That is all I truly need within myself, that feeling of being okay, that reassurance of simply being. I’m SO glad you reached out. Please write back!!! xoxoxo
First of all i have to say i admire your faith and outlook on life. It's so genuine, positive, and refreshing, and you've really inspired me to try and see the world in the same way. Secondly, you're absolutely gorgeous and confident in yourself, and i love it. Lastly, i'm a swimmer, have been for years, and i was wondering what you do to keep your hair from getting dried out from the sun? Because it absolutely fries mine.
Ahhh! It fries mine too!! I think morroccan oil works pretty well? Thank you!!! I highly recommend staying on that path! I seriously bring myself to new realizations every day, I’m so glad to hear I inspire you :))) Ahh how good is swimming? I love it soo much. Thank you again and good luck with your hair!! I swear we should all just shave our heads.
i wan't to meet you one day. and be friends with you. you are a genuine person, and people like you are hard to come by. i will never give up on watching you become who you are. you are my inspiration. i see the world different because of you. i am more open. thank you Catherine, you are truly a beautiful soul. i would say never give up, but i now you already know that! keep going gorgeous, i can't wait to watch you shine. -xxo-
wow. thank you so much. This seriously makes me so friggin happy. geez. wow. thank you.
i don't know if i'm able to post back on that post but hi i'm writing back about the time, relationships thing. i understand what you're saying, completely. i think it got scary looking so far into it, and while sometimes it might seem to be a good idea to dissect your feelings and ideas, you just feel more lost. and then it's like what's the root of your feelings and emotions? and it can be the complicated way of the smaller idea [how i was looking at it] or it can be the bigger picture [the way you expressed yourself]. I think i just have to remind myself of the bigger picture, like people being brought together after 14 billion years. i just get nervous with what comes after that, of relationships ending. but i guess there's also more after that, it's not just the end. life truly is what you make it. time IS what it is. i just have to respect that, and make the most out of it. thanks for posting back it really helped opening my mind xxx
AHH! I am seriously really loving this conversation. i wish we could be friends. ugh. haha! Yeah in a sense, some situations are kind of like this. It’s like you are about to go for a run, and you see how far you are running from the place your standing, and your like FUCK I can’t do this because you are putting the stress of the entire run in that one little moment, as opposed to spreading your moments our one by one, and quite literally, step by step. I think it is important to remember to stay focused on one thing at a time, whenever I think of ALL the things I have to do, I get stressed, whenever I focus on one point at a time, I can find a place to have utmost appreciation. But yeah, the thing with relationships, on the grand scale of how long we’ve been around, when we loose someone, we just have to remember that there will be a time to reunite. But the thing is, you can be stuck in an idea that you will never see or be with someone again, OR, you can set yourself free by having faith in the opposition to the idea of “can not”. Seriously, your mindset can set you free, or quite literally keep you in mental chains.
Hey quick question-
Now that you are 18 and can no longer do grom competitions and stuff, are you still gonna compete? or do u have to do the world tour stuff?
I want to compete here and there and I will, but not on any grand scale. I have to give up competitions for photoshoots with Billabong, which is still really cool, it gives me the opportunity to fully dive into my music, which is exactly where I want to be.
«The crazy thing about life is that it IS whatever you make it. YOU have the ability to shape your reality.» This is so true. As long as we keep on dreaming, everything is possible. There are no limits to the powers of the imagination.
Fuck yeah, words of inner truth, keep listening to that voice my friend, it will lead you (keep leading you) to heaven. :)
Hi! :) I read on here that you exercise most days. what kind of things do you do daily? love your blog by the way xxx
I have been running, but its really been hurting actually. It’s not good to run everyday, especially cause its making my knee hurt again. I think swimming is the best thing you can do for exercise, but I really love running, it’s just really hard on your knees. Swimming. Yoga is really good too but I don’t do it enough, really good for your mind.
I think it is a beautiful expression and interpretation of the light of love that has been (in some places) brutally misconceived and misshapen into a mess of judgement and unrecognized human dysfunction. I think it is a wonderful way to find a sense of community in some places. But all in all, I think there are much more effective ways to understanding human nature and relating it to our spiritual path.
Sometimes it's hard to think "the world is a profoundly beautiful place to be". Especially when we're not all as beautiful and blessed as you. You have to understand it's hard to view the world as you do when we aren't as lucky. I know you say it's not because you're so pretty and lucky, but i just wonder if you'd think the same way if you were just a regular person living in a boring state unlike cali. i'm not trying to be mean, just honest. (you're amazing, by the way)
I know what you mean, but the thing is, no matter who you are, no matter who I am, we are all human. We go through emotions, and often those emotions tell us we are not good enough, or not lucky enough. The thing is, I think life is so beautiful, because I am so familiar with the workings of my mind, the workings of my inner conscience, and the way I effect the world. If I lived in a boring state, I would find ways to make it not boring. It is not about where you are, it is about the energy you put in to your situation. The thing is, you may look at me and think I am blessed for different reasons than why I think I am blessed. If you had a mindset similar to mine, you would see that you are just as blessed as I am. And correct me if I am wrong, you are alive, breathing, you have the ability to impact anyone you come in to contact with. That is the biggest gift you can ever imagine. Remembering what kind of impact I can have on the world is what keeps my soul vibrating on such a high level. I could be unhappy, but I’m not, because I work every day to conquer the things that make me dissatisfied with life. What I am trying to say is, find the beauty in yourself, and you will see the beauty in everything. Also, I do feel like I am really lucky, but I have worked extremely hard my whole life to be where I am today, even though work is something I enjoy. By telling yourself you are anything less beautiful or blessed than what I am is a complete false statement, and I know there is some part of you that agrees with me. When you start thinking with that part of you that knows that potential, then come back to me, and let me know how profoundly beautiful the world has been looking. I will be waiting for that day :)
When we see the best in ourselves, we see the best in all our surroundings. When we recognize the state of things in this light, that is the moment when we realize, the world is a profoundly beautiful place to be.
So this evening I felt really lost. It was being lost it was being lost in my own thoughts and I just felt like everything good comes to an end. Like relationships with people or having boyfriend it's great and of course its worth it because you learn so much from it but at the end there's just hurt. So you can't help but ask yourself is it worth it. I feel like i should cut ties so I can only rely on myself and whatmakes happy and I do do that I don't rely on other peoole to make me
happy but we almost automatically do that. We surround us by people who hopefully make us happy and when "everything good comes to an end" like a relationship with a boyfriend then there's just hurt that you have to deal with. And that sucks. Then there was this whole idea about time and how incredibly fast it goes by. Weeks, months, they pass by so quickly and it's like what is it? It's time and memories. Today is lived and it's done. It's in the past. It's like pulling on a rope that never ends waiting till you can't grab anything anymore. And it could be that I'm asking for so much more even though it's life and Im forever grateful for that but I'm getting lost in the feelings part I guess. Haha I'm not sure if it makes sense and it's not like I think about this all the time but I really want your opinion because maybe it will let me see it a different way and take me out of this bummer mood
I totally know how you feel. How is seems like when we’re caught in those moments of darkness, the light seems like it really never existed. But you have to remember, there WAS a point in your life where you were the happiest you have ever been. There WILL be more amazing moments. Think about your life. Think about the things that are truly bringing you down, and think about the things that truly make you happy. If it helps, make a list. Write down everything that makes you happy, write down what makes you sad. If you can’t eliminate the things that make you sad, you are going to have to start thinking about them in a new way. The crazy thing about life is that it IS whatever you make it. Think of this in the way that you have ULTIMATE freedom. YOU have the ability to shape your reality. What are your intentions? Where do you want to go in life? You must put in positive to get positive out. If you believe in yourself, EVERYONE who matters will believe in you, and you will see it. You can look at life in this way “everything good comes to an end” or you can look at it this way “everything bad leads to something good” no matter what you do, you will be happy again, that’s just a fact of life. I think a big part of finding contentment is coming to terms with the inevitable dark days. Once you do, you can start instilling the idea that you have the mental ability (which is a practice, and a struggle) to shape your way through the dark, to remind yourself that yea, things are not the best right now, but they will get better. Also, always try to focus on the good. You have food, a roof over your head, simple things. Allow yourself time to stare at clouds, to write poetry, I love the way you write. Take a canvas and scream at it with paint, pick up an instrument, express yourself. art is vitality, expression is vitality. Also, about the relationship thing, for me, I have gotten to a point where I am really in touch with my soul, and I have connected with a handful of people who I would consider to be in my “soul family”. You must remember that even in the simplicity of this moment, 14 billion years have come together for the two of us to share ideas of life and connection. That is simple, but to me, so absolutely profound. Think of your relationships on a scale of us being 14 billion years old, that we have all known and connected far beyond the knowledge of just this lifetime. For that, I have a deep respect for my relationships, a deep understanding of their importance for my personal growth and for the growth of others. We are all so important and each a catalyst of knowledge and new experience. Remember how small we are, how big we are, how alive we are, and the potential of life we have yet to explore within ourselves. Thank you so much for messaging me!! Please write back!! xx
i didnt realize how spiritual you are... its amazing =)
Aww thank you! It feels amazing. It really helps me through situations to have such a sense of where I am in the world. Whenever I get down on myself about something physical, I can see myself literally deteriorate before my eyes. It helps keep me in check to have the voice upstairs telling me my being is too important to worry about egoic and vain things. Literally, I feel a lack of my soul being able to shine through when I am being insecure, it even comes across in my music. We all have that voice, mine is just pretty strong from practice, though it does get lost at times. But that is seriously the strongest part of my spirituality is being able to unconditionally love myself, everything else falls into place from there. It is the most important thing in life to practice self love. THE most important thing. And it really is hard at times especially with the pressures of society. Its so interesting how the judgement of an entire collective insecurity of physical image has turned into the monster that disconnects us from what we truly are. It is so important to know that there is so much satisfaction past the point of not giving a fuck how many pimples you have or what kind of shirt your wearing or whatever. But seriously, love=spirituality=happy, lack of love=unhappiness. AHhhh sorry. I write the longest responses ever.
Catherineee. you need to write a book or something.. i would seriosly buy and and ure a lot of others would too! Can't wait to hear your new music <3 But how is surfing going?
Aww!! I was actually writing a book. I was about 30 pages in and it got stolen with my backpack in Spain. I’m starting to write another. You are too sweet :))) Surfing is okay, I’m just focusing on music right now though, writing lots of new songs, trying to figure things out. There’s no surf at home so I have just been kind of sitting at my piano for hours on end. haha!! Thank you for the support, I really appreciate it. :) xoxo
helllo, i was wondering if you could explain, "we don't relate to an image we relate to a person." I know it might be really obvious but i just don't understand :) you're amazing by the way and reading your answers makes me so happy.. (i cried at one of them haha) i was suck diving under a big set today, and i got really scared and thought mayeb i should paddle back in.. but it was your words that made me think "nah im going to beat this" and yeah, i got the best barrel of my life! so THANKYOU!! :) :) xx
AHHHHH THATS AMAZING!! This seriously just made me so happy! When I say we don’t relate to an image, I mean the image which a person is portraying. I feel like if we are relating to the image of a person as opposed to who that person really is on the inside, it would be a very surface encounter, relationship, or provoke surface feelings. For example, a lot of girls see really skinny girls and say “I want to be that” and if they’re not, they can become really hurt or broken down by their insecurities. But if they related to everything that comes with being model skinny, and not just how it looks, they would feel way different about it. If they actually talked to models that have to maintain that weight, they would see it’s a whole different story. They are STARVING themselves to fit into those clothes, it is not healthy. It’s amazing really to be able to eat whatever you want and I honestly feel way healthier when I’m eating whatever I want (besides the sweets, they friggin take me down) haha! But my whole point is, if those girls looked past the image of what society has deemed “model appropriate” they would see it is not as pretty as it looks. Another way of explaining it would be, if you are SO focused on your own image, you are going to miss opportunities to truly connect with people, if we were all less concerned about how we looked, and more concerned about how we felt and made others feel, wow, would the world be different. When insecurities are dropped, we enter a whole new realm of possibility. When you are comfortable with yourself, you will find comfort in so many things, find love in so many things. Anywho… I’m going to end my ramblings! Sorry for going on for so long! I’m really stoked on your story!! Thank you for sharing!! xx :)