I am going to Europe today! I won’t be taking my computer, but I am taking my camera, and will be taking loads of photos. My tumblr will be abandoned for about 10 days but when I return I have lots and lots of photos from the past few months that I will start posting! Love to you all! xoxoxo
Ultimately, I believe in karma, the energy you put in is what you get out. I believe in the moment, and when I die, there will still be that moment. Whether or not I am conscious when I die, my energy will still be alive in some way. Hopefully I get to keep experiencing some kind of life, but I know I have already given my life, so even if I die, I can still live on through the experiences I have shared with others. I think I will, So yes is my answer!
thanks for being so kind. I thought I've read somewhere you saying he was sick before it happened, it didn't happen? sorry if I got a bit confused.
anyway I'm really happy you did nothing bad to yourself! we are special creatures, all of us, and I see something really positive about you. I think you are interested in being a better person. this is inspirational!
it is so hard to let someone special go. I feel your pain. and I know you are trying hard. I'm sure things will get better. you probably know it too. you're a good soul.
Thank you. Yes he has a few things going on with him, knee surgeries, eye surgery, and some other stuff. Things just build up sometimes and it makes everything hard to see.
I could live anywhere if I had a cool little apartment or something. I could live in San Fransisco. Honestly, I could live anywhere with forestry of some kind near by, that has become more important to me than the beach honestly. But I haven’t had a good beach day in almost a year, so I don’t really remember how it feels. haha!
I've read about your brother's story a couple of months ago. I've been depressed for a while, and even thought about committing suicide, but I realized life is wonderful and so are people. I would like to know what happened to your bro... I mean, did you and your family find out why exactly did he do that?
I'm just asking because I've been through the same thing as your brother, and of course his story is one I identify with. if it bothers you, please feel free not to answer darling! and, anyway, I just wanted to say you seem to be a lovely girl. my heart goes out to you and your family. I can see good things for you and your brother, wherever he is. much love, xo!
It was so out of the blue, we had no idea it was coming. But now that I look back on it, it makes sense, he was in his room a lot, to himself a lot. My cat died a month before and he seemed really uneffected by it. At the time, I just thought it was weird, but now I realize. He was so sad that it was hard to even show emotion. I know, it’s crazy to be in that space. I have been so low before that I have thought of it too. But I never could because of what it did to my family. Always feel free to ask, I love talking about my brother, keeps him alive in a certain way. I have been able to connect to him on a psychic level, he is okay but still hurting because of how much we miss him, because we can’t fully let go, so he can’t fully move on.
YOU honestly are the most wonderful person alive. you are a kind-hearted soul in a sea of bitterness and hate. you are the strongest person i (don't really) know. you are always so sweet and lovely to all and i always wonder to myself why can't I be as caring as you. you treat others with so much compassion on here and im guessing (actually im certain) everywhere! you have such a unique and affectionate and humorous disposition and i am so glad that you are you because there needs to be more thoughtful people out there. when i think of what to be or what should i be i think of you. you just have this amazing aura to you and you don't even know of it. i want to live a life of love and laughter and i know you are living it or attempting to live it. you truly inspire me - with all of your troubles and just the general realistic sadness of this world you are in the process of overcoming (or overcame) it and i honestly do not know what to say to you because you are just so wonderful and cool and awesome and great. stay groovy cat! ! !!! <3 from a stranger:)
Wow. This seriously is… wow. I have honestly been following your blog and wanted to reach out to you and tell you my story for soo long, cause I saw how you are effected by how heavy the world can be. The best of us are. It is good to be effected by it all, but often hard to see a way out of it when it feels like the world is falling down. I have come to a point in my life that I do still get effected by the negative, but it is a matter of pushing it out of mind, which is really hard, but possible. Obviously nothing is good all the time, but just because you are receiving negative, doesn’t mean it has to become you. It is empowering to know that ultimately, we DO have control over how we feel, no matter how much it sometimes feels like we don’t. You have every single right and power to be the person you want to be. NOTHING is holding you back but yourself. We all have the voice inside of us that tells us that we are worthless, but we all have the voice inside of us that tells us that we are beautiful. Listen to the voice that I see in you, let yourself be open to the fact that we all have the beauty, it gives us perspective and compassion for the people that are mislead by their own misunderstandings. YOU are an inspiration, keep yourself positive, we all have the ability to be prophets, it is just a matter of choice. Take care and much much much love!!! xoxoxoxo
He committed suicide. Shot himself in the head. It absolutely shattered my family and all of his friends worlds. He didn’t know how special he was to everyone, he was an incredible person. It’s so hard to see anything though when you’re that depressed. But people always have to remember about how that effects your loved ones. It is a hole that will never be filled, that’s why I must focus on letting him move on, and letting go of the “what could have happened” cause that only brings more pain.
It's a pitty you don't have more songs. I just know four from youtube and I converted to mp3 to listen in my ipod but there was some problem and I couldnt =(
Is there some place that you put all of your songs?
No, but I am coming out with my album this year! It’s going to be good I promise! :))
Honestly, exercising is my addiction. And I try to eat really healthy, when I eat bad, I just feel horrible. I avoid pasta and heavy carbs, but I can’t avoid sweets no matter how hard I try!! I feel best when I’m eating a lot of fruits and veggies, it’s pretty simple, but hard to be disciplined! Just remember that it doesn’t matter if you’re skinny or curvy, it’s all about how you feel. The sexiest thing is confidence, honestly, that is the only thing that matters. I mean besides intelligence and stuff, but that all falls into the same kind of “mind” category. haha! Thankyou though love! xx take care :)
what's your hair routine/ products that you use?! its awesome! lovee xxxxxx
I just let it grow! haha! I rarely brush it, and I wash it usually every other day. I think the key is keeping it natural. It’s important to not shampoo it too much because those natural oils are supposed to be there! haha! I also use moroccan oil, i love it! Just about a dime to quarter sized.
Hey, Cat!! I knew you from the Billabong's website. Im from Brazil and Im just learning how to write in English so I'm sorry if I will say something wrong. I love your voice... I love "oh brother, where art thou". When Im listening I can feel every part of my body and I fell that I meet my soul. I dont know if exist a real meaning to this but the point is that you can make me think about simple things like my life, my friends, my house, my family... And thats what matters.
I've always, since a kid, wanted to learn how to surf and sing and this stuff... And when I see your lifestyle I feel inspired. So, thank you for giving me some peace and hope to never give up my dreams.
This message means so much to me. Thank you so much for sharing. I’m so glad you feel my music, I am so glad you are on the path you’re on. I can see it. When you can feel someone elses music like that, it means you are already so in touch with your soul. Just keep listening to your heart, and great things will happen, life will continue to become a dream you never could have dreamt, stay on your path, it is a brilliant one.
Hi Catherine ! I love your blog. Seeing the world through your eyes is very inspirational. This place actually made me want to start my own blog and it would mean a lot to me if you would accept to take a look at it ! xx
Of course! Thank you so much! I’m glad you find inspiration from it. I just speak from my heart, and I’m so glad people are willing to listen, that’s what truly gives me hope. I love your blog!! <3