hello cat :) i find you really beautiful, i wanted to ask you if you had ever felt insecure about your body? i am really skinny and people always made jokes about it and usually call me anorexic, that makes me feel really uncomfortable in my own skin. i am really afraid of showing my body and it's hard for me feel good about it and be confident.
Thank you! I am a big phony when it comes to knowing how to represent my body. A body is beautiful if the energy inside knows who they are. Fuck people that judge your body. Find friends that are intelligent, that just don’t care about their body. I mean, girls, in general, I think, care a lot about their bodies. It feels really good to be fit, but it feels better to read a good book or to have intelligent conversations about relevant things, or to try to jam like Jimi Hendrix (but miserably fail EVERY TIME) or to LAUGH REALLY HARD like your head is spinning. Find friends that make you feel like that, all the other girls are just, eh, so replaceable.
i don't understand why people are people are so mean and stupid to each other. it makes me angry that no one cares about anyone (i speak for what i have experienced lately) that most people talks behind others back instead of talking to them face to face, i don't know why people pretend that everything is alright and that they are friends when they aren't... Maybe it's me that's wrong, it just makes me really sad that most people are not truth. :(
We’re all trying to understand each other, and a lot of that requires trial and error. Sometimes we feel anger towards someone else that, really, is only anger that we feel within ourselves. This is the case of most people that talk poorly of others, and when they learn to forgive themselves, that’s when we’ll have a grounds to forgive them, but in the mean time, it isn’t quite worth your while to worry about those kinds of people. :)
Education is a beautiful thing. All the stories we read, the things we learn, all the contemplations that ensue, we bring them with us. They become us. Do not belittle education, belittle only your lack of acceptance towards this wondrous gift of life.
hi cat, i am sorry if this question is too personal. did you thought a lot before deciding to leave surfing? or did it just came naturally to you? i mean did you felt like you needed to stop? :s <3
I never wanted to leave surfing. I just changed a lot and a lot of that change lead to me not really being a part of the surfing world. Surfing is starting to make way more sense now that I’ve played so much music and taught myself to keep a clear and positive head space. I used to get into trippy head spaces surfing which kind of pushed me away from the magic of the ocean, but I am definitely feeling it again. I love being in the ocean, but it’s been pretty flat so its a bit of a bummer but still so amazing to be close to the ocean and have that in my life so deeply. The only reason I stopped surfing as much was because I just had this feeling like so many people must feel darkness or emptiness in a sense, because I have seen and experienced such intense suffering. And if I could create a sound that alleviates this darkness or brings light or happiness into this persons life, like true joy and elation, I just thought, I need to do that. Especially because the outreach of music and the feedback can create so much more positivity and possibilities of amazingness and ecological/creative freedom with people. Through music and surfing I have realized the infinite potential of true happiness and universal blessing that life really is. And the fact that our own potential and connectivity to our passion becomes so much more potent and real when we practice what we love, and truly keep a sense of motivation, direction and diligence, with this in mind we can accomplish anything. I just think music brings people together on such a massive scale, like the ocean does. I just believe in this beautiful art project my life has become, and I want everyone to know that they can make a life that is this beautiful for themselves.
Have you ever been rejected? You are so beautiful and I'm curious as to how to would get over rejection and how you would rebuild self esteem. I feel shattered by the fact that this guy does not want me.
Of course I have! Countless times. We’re all on different levels of our path in a sense. Just because he isn’t interested in you doesn’t mean you’re not completely interesting and awesome, he just lives in a different world. I like to think of it sometimes like our souls have different textures, and your floral doesn’t match his sea, like your pedals just drown in him and he hurts you even though he’s beautiful, no matter how lovely a rose you are. Like maybe you’re a rose that is so in love with the sea, but the sea doesn’t have a nose to smell nor eyes to see, no matter how lovely it’s movements, it is incapable of feeling your essence. But that doesn’t mean your essence is any less, it is simply unrecognized. We’re not all meant to feel each other completely, I don’t think. I like to think of people that have come into my life as lovely novelties, little pieces that I got to experience, though I wish it could have been something more. They’re people you can look back on during hard times and just say, “that’s a beautiful human being.” Sometimes it will be enough to just appreciate someone, but I do know the anguish of just wanting to be next to someone, and having it be quite impossible. As for rebuilding self esteem, I am all about the idea that what is within is all around, that we are not filled by another but lifted by the love that exists between two people. I love to think that you are your own little world, and you have the ability to create a beautiful little world, one free of questioning, but filled with a yearning to learn more, and be more, for yourself, but for the world as well. If we are this world to ourselves, we will be this world to the person we choose to love and that chooses to love us.
have you ever experienced making a choice in your life and later find out it's totally the opposite of what you really want? i am going through that right now and i fell so frustrated and sad. I can't stop crying and i don't know if i can handle it much longer. I usually look in the positive side of things and have the strength to keep going but now i just feel like it's too much for me to handle. i am afraid i might break.
Remember this, it is not our single thought that makes us fall in love with the world, nor our ability to succeed in exactly what we want, it is understanding again the depth of moments we have felt, moments we know but have lost somehow. I don’t know anything about your situation, nor do I know everything about life, but from what I have collected, it is the world that reminds us how beautiful life is, not our own personal “stability or ability to move forward.” I do believe it is when we let ourselves go blank beneath a tree, let ourselves for a moment wonder instead of worry, that we again feel these magical little bits and pieces of our soul that exist beneath our skin. Try something, for a day, when you begin to worry or get anxiety, when you begin to feel like you’re going to break, say to yourself “wonder, not worry.” You are one little lovely drop in a massive, beautiful, incredible ocean of wonder, with tides that can take you anywhere and everywhere. Be a part of the ocean, if you think you are a drop, all alone by yourself, you will forget the beauty of changing with the tides that truly wish to hold your heart so delicately. Be good to you, you are good. Stress could be from motivation, motivation is good, but don’t let it steal your happiness, that’s when you will feel lost I think. And I have made countless decisions that have lead me down a path of feeling like I completely lost and ruined everything, but the truth is, you only loose your situation, you still have yourself, and your true self has the ability to create new stunning life situations, though you can never go backwards, so there is really no point in worrying, unless you can learn something from it.